it finally hit me

When I went to my mom's for dinner last night I saw grandma's urn sitting by the fireplace. I was lying in bed later that night, it finally hit me that grandma is gone. It hit me like a lightening bolt and left as soon as it came. I know it will come again and take my breath away. I don't look forward to these moments but they allow me to grieve and I am grateful for those feelings. Thank you for all you gave me grandma - thank you!